The more you do, Shannon, the more I can do for you.
Don’t worry that your baby steps are small, mine cross continents.
And don’t worry when you can’t yet see what I’m doing… soon everyone will.
Look out world,
The Universe
Look out world
November 3rd, 2010Dinner?
November 3rd, 2010SWEET POTATOES BRAISED WITH CREAM, ROSEMARY AND NUTMEG
2 tablespoons butter
1/2 cup finely chopped shallots
2 1/2 tsp minced fresh rosemary
2 pounds sweet potatoes, peeled & cut into 1/2-inch-thick rounds, halved
1 can low-salt chicken broth
1/2 cup whipping cream
fresh grated nutmeg
coarse salt and fresh ground pepper
HEAT butter in large, heavy skillet over medium-high heat. Add shallots and minced rosemary and saut� until tender, about 3 minutes.
ADD sweet potatoes and broth to skillet and bring to boil. Cover skillet, reduce heat to medium-low and simmer until potatoes are almost tender, about 15 min.
ADD cream and sprinkle lightly with nutmeg. Simmer uncovered until sweet potatoes are very tender and liquid thickens and coats them, about 10-15 minutes. Season with salt and pepper.
with a nice green salad… YUM!!
I can Knit…
October 28th, 2010So, I made a light saber to add to the geek knit collection. I couldn’t find a free pattern so I looked at a picture and made my own pattern. It is small (15-18 inches) and a little floppy, I think for the next one I will put a wooden dowel inside and stuff around that. And yes, I did say next one. My brother IS going to have a little baby girl who will need things like stuffed D4’s and D20’s and light sabers and a Jayne hat. Huzzah for Geek Knit!
This one was start for and will be going to the little Fan Boy, or the one who is better known to all of you as “The Baby”. Now, I also REALLY REALLY want to knit a Jedi Doll that this here light saber can go to… But, I have not found a suitable pattern yet. Suggestions?
Jaded?
October 18th, 2010Some people’s speeches start with “I have a dream…” mine starts with “I have a friend…”
People without kids get to take longer to get over things. Sometimes I think i am jealous (or maybe it is just the fact that they get to sleep longer and go pee alone). What I do not understand is how a person can be SO heartbroken and just thrashed over a breakup… with a person they were only seeing for 2 months. Or how you can KNOW the end is coming and hang on for dear life, then when it is over act like you had NO IDEA it was coming. I am THAT friend… the one who will point out when you knew, the one who you can cry on. I am also the one who will sweetly tell you to get off your ass and try it again. Just because that didn’t work doesn’t mean there isn’t SOMETHING out there (notice the lack of the use of the word someone) that will get you to happy. There HAS to be, that is the way the Universe works… I am sure the Universe even told me that a time or 2. I am the friend who will have all the answers and refuses to let you wallow while we are talking. I am the one who will point out to you again and again why you knew this was coming and what behavior is self destructive and what behavior is healthy. Me… I am THAT friend.
I am the perpetually single mother, who wants to keep it that way. I am the one who has no intention for “settling down” with anyone while my daughter still lives here. (yes, yes, if I am being perfectly honest… there is ONE person who could change all that, but I am sure we also know how freaking likely THAT is to happen) The longest monogamous committed relationship I have been in lasted a little more than a year. I have only had one person leave me where it tore me to shreds… and that wasn’t all that long ago in the grand scheme of things.
I totally forget where I was going with any of this.
I will just end it here then. Don’t worry, I will be here for you when you call again tomorrow to say all the same things over and over again. I love you, you are family… and I take care of people, it’s what I do.
Speaking of taking care of people, I think I really should sit down and talk about this whole “resurfaced past lover” (ya, lets call it that) situation… soon, right now I am happy and content with it… I am just not sure if I am once again setting myself up for a tumble. But for now I feel really really good about everything.
ALSO – I FUCKING MISS YOU ALL. I am done with Sleepy Hollow… when can get get together? I need group hugs, kid snuggles and your laughter.
Nicknames
October 13th, 2010I am not sure how many of you are aware that when I think about people I don’t think with names. In my head everyone either has a nickname or an image that is associated with them. It tends to be something that just kinda stuck from the moment I realized that I liked you. For some that happens to be something in your profile (D4), for some it is how you looked the moment I noticed you (leaning on the wooden fence thingy), for some it is what I first called you when talking to my people about you (The Baby) …
The people who have names in my thoughts are my ‘family’. That is how I know I love you… or how I realize it… Is this even making sense? LOL – I mean really, a lot of you don’t even have your ‘real’ name listed in my phone. But I still know how to find you when I need you. Some of you have a different word/image association in my head than the one that was originally there. But each and every one of you at some point in time or another had something other than your name that I knew you by. Maybe this is why I am SO bad with names!! I am sure this is also why I call people by the wrong name on occasion… Think about it; if you do, say something, or look like the image of someone else I hold in my head that is the automatic association that happens in my head and spews out my mouth.
Anyway… I just thought I would let the cat out of the bag for everyone. It is only fair now.
Sleep sweet when you get there!
Smoochie kisses
So this is love
October 13th, 2010I have had that song stuck in my freaking head for days… It is a song that Cinderella and the prince sing to each other in the Disney cartoon. I actually wonder what Love is quite often. I mean I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I love my family and my ‘family’ (you know who you are!).
Is it love when I feel the need to tuck you under my wing and take care of you for all time. Is it love when I would be willing to shoulder all of your burden for you, but know that you have to do it on your own. Is it love when I would stand beside you through everything, and let you walk away to deal with things on your own when that is what you want. Is it love when there really is no OTHER explanation of why you are here… Is it love when I need you? Is it love when I sleep better with you in my bed? Is it love when I am willing to stand by and let you fall on your face, and to help you up again.
I forgot what the hell this was about. Posting as is. *shrug*
Protected: Hello Stranger
October 12th, 2010le sigh
October 6th, 2010*deep breath*
OK, so far I kicked ass on my Math exam and got a 98%. I also currently have a 104.69% in my Biology class… not that I am keeping score or anything. My first aid teacher doesn’t post grades online so I have no idea what me score is in that class… but I am sure it is not as awesome as the other two classes. so… that covers school. I was really hoping to have some hot sex in the bathroom with gorgeous women stories by now. *sigh*
Theater – we have 6 more Sleepy Hollow shows. You should ALL come and see the play, cause we totally rock the theater. All the details can be found here: http://www.theaterartsforchildren.org/index.asp
Rashell and I are totally auditioning for The Little Mermaid this Sunday. I really want to play the Sea Witch!! I would be GREAT at it. AND it is a MUSICAL. YAY! My house mates are going to LOVE my practicing.
I think here is where I will stop. I still have a Jeremy around as well as a Nick and a David. School and this theater addiction are interfering with my sex life something fierce, but I have been letting Violet Blue read me bedtime stories… and I have someone to sleep with a couple days a week.
There, now you are updated on my life. Can I go to sleep now? NO?! oh ya… I have more math stuff.
Suddenly
September 18th, 2010It hits me hardest when I am in a bad mood on a coldish day. I really am lonely sometimes… most of the time? It is just that I can usually hid it from myself pretty well. I even miss Jeremy more on days like today, mostly because when I am wrapped in his arms I feel safe secure and protected. I know that is all an illusion… and I do get the same feeling of being safe and secure when I am sleeping next to Nick.
But tonight I have no one to come home to, no one to curl up with and a daughter that I lost it with again. It is one of those days that I feel unworthy of the ‘mom’ title… or where I want to just quit, not that I ever really WOULD… it is just one of those days.
Sometimes I think maybe sex will help me feel better. But that doesn’t help THIS… there are many things it DOES help though *grin*. It really doesn’t make me feel any better about WHO I am, all these people that want to fuck me. And the ones who want to take care of me… well I almost feel sorry for them, because all they make me want to do on days like today is stomp on them. I do not ever want someone to shoulder the burden for me, sometimes I just want a no strings attached hug. Wow… I just had a thought that explains why I am so poly-amorous … Who in the world could be everything I need them to be, how could it even be fair to ask, and why would I want to settle for less than everything I desire?
I really am a selfish bitch at times… I love it!
Today…
September 16th, 2010Rashell called me from school because she left her lunch at home. So I had to take of my ‘dominatrix’ gear (as David called it) and go deliver her lunch to her.
Ya, it was just that kind of a day.