Posts Tagged ‘dating’
Protected: Open means Open
Wednesday, June 16th, 2010This or That
Wednesday, June 9th, 2010Sometimes getting to know people feels like a chore, and sometimes it is very rewarding. Is it ok that I would almost rather have superficial relationships for the time being? But what if I don’t really mean that… what if I just mean that I don’t ever want to get married, or have another child. I don’t want another relationship to end just because I am not willing to get married or live together. I am upfront about this with people… then there comes a point when it isn’t enough, when someone wants more.
I am not living the great american dream… I am living the great shannon dream. This will one day involve a maid and a chef and possibly a nude communal living compound.
Another concern of mine is that my daughter will be raised with me being single and only have her Dad’s relationship as the ideal of what a relationship should be… and I am very not ok with that. So… how do I give her an idea of what a happy and healthy relationship should be? That is the question.
Protected: Introspection
Tuesday, June 8th, 2010Sleeping Together
Thursday, May 20th, 2010Do you know what I miss most about sleeping next to someone? Feet. Yes I said feet. I miss my feet and legs tangled with other feet and legs. Oh and the way another persons smell (not the bad kind) lingers on my pillow. How a warm body adds heat and comfort on a cold night. I almost miss the days when I would sleep in bed with my friends, and not in the sex way, but in the sleep over way.
Billy Jonas has a song called Sleeping Together … I will have it in my head as i fall asleep tonight.
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In the words of my ever wise sister “Life sucks… You’ll love it”
AND in the words of my ever wise Tiana “Jesus died for my sins right? Well, I don’t want his death to be in vain so I am Sinning it UP!”
I have to tell you now… I love my people!
Sleepless in Spokane
Monday, May 17th, 2010I don’t sleep anymore. Not like I should …
HOLD please it is dark and raining … and warm. I am going to go be naked for a bit in my yard …
ok, I am back. It is a little chilly outside once you get all wet. Why don’t I ever have the right partner at the right time to go have sex with me outside on the rain? Anyway… where was I … Oh ya, sleep. Well I have not been sleeping well. There is so much change that happened in a short time. I mean my entire definition of my life has been altered. And in all honesty, I MISS Jeremy! I miss the night we laid in bed and watched the lightening of a storm from my window, I miss running over to see him (see?) on my lunch breaks, I miss his arms around me and how safe and comforted and protected I felt in them… I could go on, but there isn’t any point. I am sure I could come up with the things that I do not miss, but I do not see the point in that.
Hold please… must watch storm!
Oh and the sex… I really miss the sex. OY! I was done with that part wasn’t I?
I know… I need a personal ad. Send it to all your friends:
Single White Female seeks Single Male or Female as a life companion and lover. I am looking for someone to laugh with me and who is unafraid to dance in the rain… or who is at least willing to stand by and laugh while I dance in the rain. Must live a healthy lifestyle, love cats and kids. Be ready for grand adventures that include pulling weeds, dancing till 4am, frantically searching the yard for the lost tortoise again, reading on the front steps with your morning coffee and gathering in groups full of laughter and love. I love to read books that I have read before because it feels like I am visiting an old friend I have not seen in a while, and I read new books to meet new friends. Must be full of acceptance and posses the ability not to let me make all the rules in the lightest way possible. I am looking for someone to walk with me on the path of life as my equal. Are you out there?
Social Butterfly
Sunday, May 2nd, 2010Did you know that I get really REALLY nervous when I go out? If I drive myself I get all quakey and shivery inside. I worry that the night is not going to go well or that I am going to make myself look stupid and be ashamed in the morning. Once I get to a place I am able to step in to character and go with the flow. I am able to leave my worry at the door, or at least bury it under the persona I put on. I did one hell of an amazing job of putting on the Shannon when I went out the other night! I had a blast, got to kiss a beautiful girl, got to flirt with the help and actually push the straight men who tried to touch me.
I am so nervous when it comes to flirting with women. It matters to me if they say yes or no. That is why men are so easy. I find one that looks like fun and think “Hrm, that would be fun and easy” and go hit on them. And right now I am so nervous about this school thing that I am looking for a … distraction.
I carry around a lot of self doubt and question myself at every turn. I am never sure that I can actually DO anything until it is done. I am also never sure I am worth it to the people I am dating. I am sure that has lead to a lot of selling myself short in the past, but now I have seen what life and relationships can feel like if I DON’T sell myself short. From here on out I act as if I AM worth it! (OK OK OK, so I have always been good at ACTING like I am worth it, I will start feeling like I am worth it!)