Posts Tagged ‘Life’

Nicknames

Wednesday, October 13th, 2010

I am not sure how many of you are aware that when I think about people I don’t think with names.  In my head everyone either has a nickname or an image that is associated with them.  It tends to be something that just kinda stuck from the moment I realized that I liked you.  For some that happens to be something in your profile (D4), for some it is how you looked the moment I noticed you (leaning on the wooden fence thingy), for some it is what I first called you when talking to my people about you (The Baby) …

The people who have names in my thoughts are my ‘family’.  That is how I know I love you… or how I realize it… Is this even making sense?  LOL – I mean really, a lot of you don’t even have your ‘real’ name listed in my phone.  But I still know how to find you when I need you.  Some of you have a different word/image association in my head than the one that was originally there.  But each and every one of you at some point in time or another had something other than your name that I knew you by.  Maybe this is why I am SO bad with names!!  I am sure this is also why I call people by the wrong name on occasion… Think about it; if you do, say something, or look like the image of someone else I hold in my head that is the automatic association that happens in my head and spews out my mouth.

Anyway… I just thought I would let the cat out of the bag for everyone.  It is only fair now.

Sleep sweet when you get there!

Smoochie kisses

Today…

Thursday, September 16th, 2010

Rashell called me from school because she left her lunch at home.  So I had to take of my ‘dominatrix’ gear (as David called it) and go deliver her lunch to her.

Ya, it was just that kind of a day.

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Friday, August 20th, 2010

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Funk

Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010

I feel like I am in a funk today… that usually means my period is right around the corner.  But I guess this could be a come down from last week.  I mean WOW, what a week!

Not only did Jeremy jump back in (and right back out again in a hurry), I also started training the baby fan boy (I am going to make some other woman very happy some day), I somehow fit a date in to my week as well, we also had the wedding, rehearsal dinner, girl night, indoctrination in to a family, joy, envy, LAUGHTER, the after party, making out with straight girls, a ton of drinking, short visits and a few sleep overs with Nick and some texts that never should have been sent. (and not all in that order!)

I heard things  and did things that made me feel totally irresponsible this last week… I also heard things and did things that made me feel like I was on top of the world!  Now I am going to take a bath and possibly do more yard work.  I will figure myself out one of these days… or maybe I should just let the dark cloud of PMS run it’s  course and decide that is all this is.

I feel like an idiot all over again when I say things like “I still wish I could love you enough for the both of us.”  OY!  I really need to get over myself.

Ode to Derek

Thursday, July 22nd, 2010

I have known Derek since the summer before 7th grade.  He has been my best friend and my sounding board for as long as I can remember.  We go through months at a time where we don’t do more than play phone tag and occasionally leave each other messages.  Then we will do things like have 2 hour long phone conversations.  I can cry with Derek, on the phone… never tried that in person.  And last night I cried… (I am sure the 4 rather large glasses of wine helped).  I let out all of my worry AND got to crawl in to bed next to a Wonderful man (and thank YOU as well for being here last night, I appreciate that you were willing and able to sleep over here). So really, Derek… you are an amazing person and I thank you for who you are to me!  I really hope that I offer you the same peace of mind and comfort that I get from you about life and love.  You are my friend and I love you with every cell in my body (even the abnormal ones).  Smoochie Kisses (even though we KNOW that doesn’t work with us) *giggle*  You will open your eyes one day and see you like I do, and you will love you that much more.

I slept well and realized (with a little help from some universal calculator love) that there is no point to worrying.  What happens will happen and i will deal with that too.  I also KNOW that Friday’s dinner is a not good (not BAD either) idea, but I need it so i am going to do it anyway!  Though I am sure that we all know that about me already.

Big heart, hard head, strong will, great smile, loud laugh.

Hopefully the sex ban gets lifted today!  *grin*

Outlook Good

Monday, July 19th, 2010

On a happier note – My week plans are looking to be rather awesome and amusing.

Today was a run around and get shit done day that went like this: MOM magickally arrives and is willing to hang out with Rashell so I can run around town.  I get to the SCC Bookstore only to find out that I can’t even FIND what BOOKS I NEED until Aug 30th let alone buy them early – then I find out that I can’t get the Training Bene’s from UI because the Pre Reqes for nursing take too long… NEW PAPERWORK and I go back on Thursday morning.  Go to get car registered in WA… get sent to emissions testing, back to licensing – GOT THE PLATES.  I can now go downtown without getting a ticket.

Tomorrow I will Cut and Color my mom’s and Rashell’s hair.  Then we get to pack Rashell for her vacation (think she will fit in the backpack).  This does mean that I have to get the laundry done.

Wed – I take mom and Rashell to the airport, then I have a date to teach the little boy (he is 21) that graveyards are not scary and that this one really doesn’t have Zombies… ah the life lessons some people need.  Nick is coming over at so yet undetermined time to make sure that I sleep at least a little bit.  *kiss* you rock!

Thurs – I have a morning appointment to see the UI dude at the school again to fill out my new paperwork packet so I can get Unemployment while going to school.  I have the Cervical Biopsy thingy at 230… then I am free.

Friday – I may very well end up watching another Star Wars movie since David has made it his sworn duty to make sure that I see all of them before he flies back to CA for Fall Quarter.  Then sometime after 7 Jeremy is coming over for dinner, talking and a possible walk.

Saturday – I am going to spend time at Pete and Andrea’s house (if this is OK with them) making sure the yard and deck are all ready.  I may even go out dancing at Irv’s at night… I may or may not be bringing Cellar Girl with me.

I guess I also need to add that I will be finishing the Wedding gift somewhere in the middle of all that… I will also eat and water the lawn.  I may even mow the grass that I am trying to kill.

Well I am off to have the recommended Candyland Dreams.

sleep sweet when you get there…

Stormy

Wednesday, June 23rd, 2010

Oh the things a good Summer Thunder Storm makes me want to do:

Dance naked in the rain

lay in the grass and watch and feel the storm passing

Have soft and slow sex with the rain falling on us

Splash in puddles

Have someone feel the rain all over my skin

SHIT!  I really need to get my gates fixed so I can play outside naked!

Gavin had better show up and fix them… he owes me *smile*

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Wednesday, June 16th, 2010

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Tuesday, June 8th, 2010

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Imagination

Friday, June 4th, 2010

Yesterday my imagination ran  away with me.  I had all kinds of sex in my head all day!  And I really do mean all day.  There are other things that I imagine as well… Things like what school will be like and where new people will fit in to my life and how long I will have the current friendships.  (By the way I totally saw us all old and knitting on the porch of the lake house when I saw the pic Jas took of us last weekend) I have imagined up a communal living society where we all raise the kids as a community so the parents don’t have to feel so alone.  I have also imagined what the completed blanket will look like for my brothers baby.  I have imagined a whole life in the last day…

What joyous adventures will today bring?