I … Insert incoherent stuttering here … wow.
I’m just sayin’ is all…
I am going to attempt to sleep now. I can still smell him on me. I can’t remember the last time I was so wet and so turned on!
YUM!
Posts Tagged ‘Life’
HOLY SHIT!
Monday, May 24th, 2010Ouch
Friday, May 21st, 2010All the leftovers are gone.
Time to start anew!
Sleeping Together
Thursday, May 20th, 2010Do you know what I miss most about sleeping next to someone? Feet. Yes I said feet. I miss my feet and legs tangled with other feet and legs. Oh and the way another persons smell (not the bad kind) lingers on my pillow. How a warm body adds heat and comfort on a cold night. I almost miss the days when I would sleep in bed with my friends, and not in the sex way, but in the sleep over way.
Billy Jonas has a song called Sleeping Together … I will have it in my head as i fall asleep tonight.
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In the words of my ever wise sister “Life sucks… You’ll love it”
AND in the words of my ever wise Tiana “Jesus died for my sins right? Well, I don’t want his death to be in vain so I am Sinning it UP!”
I have to tell you now… I love my people!
Sleepless in Spokane
Monday, May 17th, 2010I don’t sleep anymore. Not like I should …
HOLD please it is dark and raining … and warm. I am going to go be naked for a bit in my yard …
ok, I am back. It is a little chilly outside once you get all wet. Why don’t I ever have the right partner at the right time to go have sex with me outside on the rain? Anyway… where was I … Oh ya, sleep. Well I have not been sleeping well. There is so much change that happened in a short time. I mean my entire definition of my life has been altered. And in all honesty, I MISS Jeremy! I miss the night we laid in bed and watched the lightening of a storm from my window, I miss running over to see him (see?) on my lunch breaks, I miss his arms around me and how safe and comforted and protected I felt in them… I could go on, but there isn’t any point. I am sure I could come up with the things that I do not miss, but I do not see the point in that.
Hold please… must watch storm!
Oh and the sex… I really miss the sex. OY! I was done with that part wasn’t I?
I know… I need a personal ad. Send it to all your friends:
Single White Female seeks Single Male or Female as a life companion and lover. I am looking for someone to laugh with me and who is unafraid to dance in the rain… or who is at least willing to stand by and laugh while I dance in the rain. Must live a healthy lifestyle, love cats and kids. Be ready for grand adventures that include pulling weeds, dancing till 4am, frantically searching the yard for the lost tortoise again, reading on the front steps with your morning coffee and gathering in groups full of laughter and love. I love to read books that I have read before because it feels like I am visiting an old friend I have not seen in a while, and I read new books to meet new friends. Must be full of acceptance and posses the ability not to let me make all the rules in the lightest way possible. I am looking for someone to walk with me on the path of life as my equal. Are you out there?
Late Entry ~ Worries
Friday, April 23rd, 2010I wrote this while I was out and about earlier this week with every intention of putting in on my blog as soon as I got home… Well, better late than never, ya?
I am not sure if I am looking to make new memories of old places or if I am looking for new places to make the same old mistakes. I am sitting here on a hill that overlooks the Falls. This is where I spent all last summer hoping Jeremy would show up. I had a lot of tough conversations on this hill and did a hell of a lot of thinking and took the occasional nap. Now, please don’t start worrying… He can’t show up here now, hence why I came here. This just happens to be the most relaxing and beautiful place that I have found in Spokane. It has become my “Red Hill Park” in this here town.
I am hesitating… taking as long as I can not to think about making a decision. I am always so scared to take that first step. After that I know that my feet will follow the lead they are given and continue. I just feel so unsure when starting a new adventure. In my own head I honestly am one of those people who would be content to live alone in the middle of nowhere doing the same thing day after day. I have this ability to walk a rut a mile deep… But I also add to the the knowledge of when it is time to climb out and begin again. NOW is my time, I even know where I want to go… I just can’t see the whole story yet. I have to have the fully formed plan in my head for this to all work out. I am also so worried that it won’t work out for me that I am scared to go for it. There is no safety net for this decision, no fall back plan… and I think that is what I may be waiting for.
Too bad Shannon. You are getting you ass to school and doing what needs to be done… TOMORROW!
Up is the only way to go from here.
Who wants to know?
Sunday, April 11th, 2010While on vacation I did all of my normal “California” things… But it felt different this time. Right now the biggest difference I see is that I don’t want to share every detail with the world. This trip was for me and the things and people I did get to be my own to share with the individuals I choose. I do know that people change I even know that I change, but this REALLY showed me how much I am not who I once was. I am content with myself as is. I love the life I have built here in Spokane. I love the seasons and the lakes and my friends. I love who I am here, and I love that I have the ability to life life much more “green” than I ever did before.
I guess what I am trying to say is Thank You Universe! for all of the lovely changes that have come my way in life.