Posts Tagged ‘possibility’
Protected: love letter … leave letter
Thursday, December 16th, 2010Dinner?
Wednesday, November 3rd, 2010SWEET POTATOES BRAISED WITH CREAM, ROSEMARY AND NUTMEG
2 tablespoons butter
1/2 cup finely chopped shallots
2 1/2 tsp minced fresh rosemary
2 pounds sweet potatoes, peeled & cut into 1/2-inch-thick rounds, halved
1 can low-salt chicken broth
1/2 cup whipping cream
fresh grated nutmeg
coarse salt and fresh ground pepper
HEAT butter in large, heavy skillet over medium-high heat. Add shallots and minced rosemary and saut� until tender, about 3 minutes.
ADD sweet potatoes and broth to skillet and bring to boil. Cover skillet, reduce heat to medium-low and simmer until potatoes are almost tender, about 15 min.
ADD cream and sprinkle lightly with nutmeg. Simmer uncovered until sweet potatoes are very tender and liquid thickens and coats them, about 10-15 minutes. Season with salt and pepper.
with a nice green salad… YUM!!
Protected: Dating sites
Tuesday, September 14th, 2010Aw hell, why not?
Thursday, August 12th, 2010How it is that the one person who can make me feel so comforted and protected just by putting his arms around me, is also the one we all know isn’t good for me. I am still amazed at how I feel in his arms, and how turned on I am by his kisses. Shit, we were together for a year and he still makes my knees weak and my heart pound. There is this level of comfort between us… and I can read him so well. It helps that the sex is amazing, but some of that is how I feel about him.
Before everyone freaks out… I am not getting back together with my ex. He is just kinda, uh… coming around every once in a while. For fun. For comfort. For company. He did sleep in my bed, and I did have to change the sheets so I couldn’t smell him because that would make me miss him. I don’t want to miss him. I was to dismiss the fun once I have had it. If it happens again, it happens… if not so be it. I know there is just as much of a chance that I will see him again next week as there is of not hearing from him for 3 months. *shrug* And life goes on.
In other news: The more good, fun sex I have the more good, fun sex I want. I may be going crazy.
I got called a MILF Muahahahahaaa! That is hot (and he is STILL so freaking young)
I also got called beautiful by a guy who makes me melt a little. He is gorgeous and fun and sexy. All around quite yummy.
My life fucking rocks right now… and that makes me want to squash the little voice in the back of my head that is reminding me that what goes up must come back down. I tell that voice it can kiss my ass, and if it is very very good, it can also bite me.
Funk
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2010I feel like I am in a funk today… that usually means my period is right around the corner. But I guess this could be a come down from last week. I mean WOW, what a week!
Not only did Jeremy jump back in (and right back out again in a hurry), I also started training the baby fan boy (I am going to make some other woman very happy some day), I somehow fit a date in to my week as well, we also had the wedding, rehearsal dinner, girl night, indoctrination in to a family, joy, envy, LAUGHTER, the after party, making out with straight girls, a ton of drinking, short visits and a few sleep overs with Nick and some texts that never should have been sent. (and not all in that order!)
I heard things and did things that made me feel totally irresponsible this last week… I also heard things and did things that made me feel like I was on top of the world! Now I am going to take a bath and possibly do more yard work. I will figure myself out one of these days… or maybe I should just let the dark cloud of PMS run it’s course and decide that is all this is.
I feel like an idiot all over again when I say things like “I still wish I could love you enough for the both of us.” OY! I really need to get over myself.
Well fuck
Friday, July 30th, 2010No… seriously!
Is it something in the air? Did the Dr knock something crooked when she was looking for imperfections (as if I HAVE any)? All I want is sex sex sex… all the time and a lot of it. Cause sex works for a great deal longer than masturbating does… though that is fun too. Tonight didn’t help… I hung out with hot hot hot women and talked about sex, and shaving and relationships (which we all know I stay out of). Could it be just that Rashell is gone and I can have all the loud sex I want…
All I can think lately is that I should write another sex rite… like a group one… for the Collective Us. But I am not sure that even saying that out loud to everyone is a good Idea. And do I really want to go back to the once Upon a Time when I hardly knew anyone I hadn’t had sex with at one point or another?
A friend told me the other day that if I was a man, I wouldn’t be worrying about these kinds of things. As long as things are safe and open and honest everyone wins! But I am not a man… and I am not so sure I would want to be. I really like the emotional attachment I have to the people I allow in to my bed. Though I DO wish I could remove the emotions from the sex when it comes to Jeremy, that way I could call him in to my bed with I want him and be fine with him leaving it.
Oddly enough I was asked yesterday if it was he who initiated the whole sex having… I had to answer with an honest I don’t know. Was asking him to come over and help me out where it started? Him not wanting to let me go when we hugged? Me showing him my new scars (don’t ask)? I am sure that when he pulled he in to his lap and told me he missed me was the point that I knew where it was going to end up… But really, who cares! Would it matter one way or another? Does it matter to me? Bleh… I will just buy more toys, watch more star wars and have more sex and forget about it. It isn’t like he is allowed to come back.
And on a side note, not only have I had a sex filled week but it was GREAT sex… like all of it. Even teaching the little fan boy to use his tongue was amazing. I got him a collar *grin* He kinda makes me want to abuse him in a very very fun way.
I even went out on a date… like a real first date, dinner and everything with no sex. Weird I KNOW, but fun too!
Bring on the FUN!
Protected: Heart
Thursday, July 29th, 2010Ode to Derek
Thursday, July 22nd, 2010I have known Derek since the summer before 7th grade. He has been my best friend and my sounding board for as long as I can remember. We go through months at a time where we don’t do more than play phone tag and occasionally leave each other messages. Then we will do things like have 2 hour long phone conversations. I can cry with Derek, on the phone… never tried that in person. And last night I cried… (I am sure the 4 rather large glasses of wine helped). I let out all of my worry AND got to crawl in to bed next to a Wonderful man (and thank YOU as well for being here last night, I appreciate that you were willing and able to sleep over here). So really, Derek… you are an amazing person and I thank you for who you are to me! I really hope that I offer you the same peace of mind and comfort that I get from you about life and love. You are my friend and I love you with every cell in my body (even the abnormal ones). Smoochie Kisses (even though we KNOW that doesn’t work with us) *giggle* You will open your eyes one day and see you like I do, and you will love you that much more.
I slept well and realized (with a little help from some universal calculator love) that there is no point to worrying. What happens will happen and i will deal with that too. I also KNOW that Friday’s dinner is a not good (not BAD either) idea, but I need it so i am going to do it anyway! Though I am sure that we all know that about me already.
Big heart, hard head, strong will, great smile, loud laugh.
Hopefully the sex ban gets lifted today! *grin*
Don’t … Stop
Monday, July 19th, 2010I am having Jeremy over for dinner on Friday evening. Now before you freak out, it is just dinner. He is SO sad again. I am aware that I can’t take that from him or for him. I am aware of what happens when I get pulled in to hopeless situations. I will not let myself fall in to the meat of the issue again. I will not let him pull me in either. The man needs a fucking friend… in a totally we are so not going to fuck way.
I know what it felt like to climb in to his world of addiction. I lived it for a year… I will not be doing that again, trust me. I am willing to lend a hand and a meal to put a smile in to his week. I would do the same for every one of you! I loved him too much to not offer what I can when he reaches for it. I will keep myself whole happy and unbroken. I like what I have in life now. It is time to find out if a friendship is possible here, and if it isn’t I am prepared to just walk away. It’s just dinner for crying out loud!
Don’t worry… I am done with people projects. I found kitting.
If I say “It’s just dinner” one more time will I be trying to convince you or me of that?
My garden
Wednesday, June 30th, 2010I don’t even think she knows it, but my best friend just paid me the best compliment! She said that my garden looks like something she would thing to see around an English Cottage.
I have always wanted to live in a little stone cottage (with neighbors far enough away that I could run through fields of wild flowers naked in the sun with my head thrown back in laughter). I wasn’t planning “cottage garden” or anything when I planted everything. I just kinda plant things willy nilly till my garden is exploding and I have to start digging things out and moving them, or giving them to other gardens. I have this idea in my head that I don’t want to plant anything that isn’t worth the water it takes to grow it. This is why I am slowly getting rid of my grass. I see grass as such a waste of water! I will keep the grass on one side of my front yard for picnics and the like… BUT I see that as the land earning it’s water (maybe I should water it then huh?).
I would LOVE to get chickens one day, but I have a hard time taking care of the plants and animals and people I currently have. I am prone to lapses in attention that tend to lead to a momentary lack of water. I am really good with hearty plants! I am currently planning a shade garden, it will be a flower explosion of bliss to boarder the picnic area. I would like to hear suggestions on what should go there… I would be looking for useful herbs, anything eatable and bulbs. The shade garden has partial to full shade areas (the house next door has a HUGE tree) and I need to be able to rake leaves off the plants, so I can’t plant anything fragile. Though knowing me what will happen is that I just plant what ever tickles my fancy at that moment and I will watch it to see if it can take the shade… the things that can’t will be moved to a more sun location in time for them not to die.
And such is life in the accidental cottage garden that is my home.
THANK YOU Jaspenelle!