Posts Tagged ‘Vacation’

In The Middle

Friday, June 11th, 2010

Somewhere in the middle of what has happened before and what I imagine is the realm of possibility.  I spend a lot of time thinking about having sex.  I play out scenarios in my head all the time.  My favored one so far is this:  We are laying in the sauna each on our own bench, in the dark, heat on… Me: “I want you to tell me all the things you want to do to me.” … and you do.  Simple as that… but is that really simple?  Because I have not had a partner in a while who is good at putting future actions in to words.  Trust me, in the previously mentioned scenario we would not remain on separate benches for long.

In my head I am a everyday sex kind of person… but in actuality, there are just some days life makes me too tired to put in the kind of effort it takes to make sex great!  I really don’t miss the drunk party sex… It wasn’t ever all that fun.  Sometimes I miss the feel of a woman… it has been so damn long.  *sigh*

Mmmmmm and sex at the lake house.  So many delicious locations that I have only tried in my imagination… and so many I have memories of.  The lake houses make me hot, there is so much scope for the imagination out there.  One of these years I am going to find time to take a partner (just one? Hrm..) out there and explore the things I imagine out there.  Though that will involve time out there without child, so who knows… I can dream though, can’t I?

Who wants to know?

Sunday, April 11th, 2010

While on vacation I did all of my normal “California” things… But it felt different this time.  Right now the biggest difference I see is that I don’t want to share every detail with the world.  This trip was for me and the things and people I did get to be my own to share with the individuals I choose.  I do know that people change I even know that I change, but this REALLY showed me how much I am not who I once was.  I am content with myself as is.  I love the life I have built here in Spokane.  I love the seasons and the lakes and my friends.  I love who I am here, and I love that I have the ability to life life much more “green” than I ever did before.

I guess what I am trying to say is Thank You Universe! for all of the lovely changes that have come my way in life.